Death

My brother was very difficult brain damaged and was sedated at hospital in Linköping.

My mother and I were there, watched and hoped ... in miracles.

We were like two shipwrecked who clung to a small board ... who hoped for salvation we settled somewhere knew it was just a board ... which would not carry.


16 January 1999, calling from the hospital ... it's not long now, come now.

My ex took the last we had refueled the car and we went.


Our economy was lousy when we were a family of 6 persons and it is very expensive to be relative. It was travel to and accommodation in Linköping. We were there a lot and there was nothing we could opt out. But I did not care, he would fix it somehow with a little help from relatives.


I sat with him for the last hour.

Felt the warmth of his skin ... that would soon disappear.

Felt his smell ... that would not be anymore.

Said all that I wanted to tell him and ... Little brother, big sister takes care of this ... Mom, everything after game, I'll take care of it.


... then he died.